"Julie & Julia" && Faith~!

The scoop is, it has been a rough couple of days.  My fear and my worry has been clouding my faith and my trust in God.

I am inspired tonight to write because of the movie "Julie & Julia."  I have never watched it before now, and I have about an hour left to watch.  I stopped it for the time being because it is 2:33 AM, my time, and the wonderful man I call the love of my life, will soon be calling to tell me he is on his way home.

I have storm brewing, right under my heart and above my stomach.  It has been brewing for some time, I've only been aware of it for a week or two.  It feels like a tightly woven ball of chaos.  It takes a lot to keep it tightly woven... the last thing I want is for it to unravel and become a useless shell of a person.  I need to be calm, I have to be strong.  Through my faith and trust in God I can be those things. With my faith and trust in God I can conquer this storm, I can diminish it to absolutely nothing.

It is now 2:48 AM.  I have been on the phone for 13 minutes and writing is utterly impossible while I am trying to listen and speak with Charles.  It is important that I hear him.  It is important that I pay attention and be attentive to what he needs. Just now he's said something about "awesome-ness in a stick of gum" which is my cue to start paying attention.  It's the weird statements that always catch my ear.

Be happy and be at peace, the Lord is with you, even when life feels utterly impossible.  He's standing right there blocking the bulk of the shit storm, because he loves you.

Until Next Time...
-Ash-
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